Of Monsters and Men by Jeremy Stelzner

Roxanne’s father loved a good fairy tale. He loved them so much, in fact, that he’d make up a new one for his oldest daughter, Roxanne, each night after returning home from the office.

Each story was built upon the same foundation. A bedrock of once upon a time. A fairytale opening for a fairytale life. She loved snuggling up with her father and disappearing into his tales of magical kingdoms and beautiful princesses in stone castles.

The stories themselves were formulaic. Most are. The princess finds herself in some kind of danger, and a brave knight swoops in to save the day. The knights were handsome, strong, and just. The monsters were savage wolves or ogres sent by a greedy witch to wreak havoc upon the world. It was the greedy witch who was the one pulling the strings from behind the scenes, like the great and powerful Oz. For some reason, the witch never scared Roxanne. What frightened her most was the fire-breathing dragons that circled the skies before laying waste to the realm. You just never knew when they would strike. If only her father had warned her, the real monsters didn’t have scales or wings or fangs. The real monsters looked like the handsome knights.

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Roxanne reluctantly returned home for the first time in years. She wiped the snow from the windshield of her baby blue Corolla. The mansion still looked like a castle from her father’s stories with the iron gates, the stone walls, the palatial façade, and the towering cupola. The last of the sun fell behind the trees off on the horizon. Hundreds of landscaping lights activated, shining spotlights upon the family’s garish affluence. Father used to keep them on all night long. Damn the cost, he’d say. He didn’t want anyone driving by in the darkness to miss the grandeur of all he’d built. It was a rouse though, designed by new money to look like old money.

Stepping out of the car, Roxanne looked at her reflection in the side mirror and fixed her hair. She leaned up against the car, lit a cigarette, and watched the guests arrive. Neighbors, her father’s business associates, and even the board of directors from the county club were all dressed to the nines in ball gowns and tuxedos. Like Roxanne, they came in the hope of leaving a little richer than when they arrived.

Standing outside the magnificent structure, Roxanne looked the part. Her smooth black hair, her emerald eyes, and her long, delicate limbs. If her father were to shine a spotlight upon her, all the passersby would be in awe of such a magnificent façade. But her father couldn’t shine a light on anything anymore because he was dead.

A familiar voice startled her from behind.

“You know what Mom always says about cigarettes?” her younger sister, Janine, asked.

“Jesus, Janie, you scared the shit out of me!”

“She says anxiety belongs in steerage.”

Janine leaned in and snatched her sister’s cigarette. She crushed it out on the brick pavers with the toe of her Jimmy Choos. Janine was the reciprocal presentment of her sister’s elegance, her shimmering golden hair tied back and up in a bun.

Roxanne pulled another cigarette from her purse.

“How’s the big city? Having fun slumming it?” Janine asked, flashing her a wry smile. Roxanne had forgotten that look of restrained resentment that Janine had mastered.

“Do you really care?” Roxanne asked.

“No.”

“So why’d you ask?”

“Why are you here, Roxi?”

“Mom told me they’d be reading the will. She said Dad left me some—”

“You shouldn’t have come back.”

When Roxanne’s black ballet flat touched the Carrera marble floor of the foyer, the cocktail-sipping chit-chat suddenly stopped. The room went silent. All eyes turned her way. She politely nodded to the gawking guests. Something felt wrong here, though. Then she remembered that something had always felt wrong here.

She walked under the Parisian crystal chandelier and placed her black peacoat on the Steinway piano bench in the drawing room. No drawing took place there. From the other side of that vast room, Roxanne’s mother socialized artfully while brushing a few loose, gray hairs behind her ear. Mother was in a flowing black gown with lacing around the shoulder line. The look was the portraiture of a life she had dreamed up for herself. It was a style designed to flaunt the pageantry of her husband’s wealth and status. It was in the gaudiness of the diamonds in her rings and the heft of the pearls in her ears—all necessary tools required to maintain a veneer of superiority.

Mother stood in front of the large oak door that led down to Father’s celebrated wine cellar. Roxanne had never been allowed down there. For some reason, it was always Janine who was sent to retrieve some expensive bottle of this or rare vintage of that.

Mother was sipping on a martini with a half dozen olives while gabbing with the family attorney, Mr. Cartwright. Cartwright looked harmless enough, like Mr. Rodgers, if Mr. Rodgers had been in the midst of a mid-life crisis for the better part of twenty years. He had dark, thinning hair and a sad little ponytail. He wore a cable knit sweater, penny loafers, and a canary yellow bow tie that wasn’t nearly as charming as he thought. Cartwright was all smiles and pleasantries, laughing away while fidgeting with a heavy key that he pawed in his tiny hand. The key was made of iron and looked more like something that belonged to an old pirate than the family attorney. He handed it to Mother before making his way toward Roxanne.

“So you decided to show,” he said. “We were taking bets.”

“I want my money and then I’m going home.”

“Back to the dregs, eh?”

“How much, Mr. Cartwright?”

“How many times have I asked you to call me Ron?” he asked, reaching out for her slender wrist.

“How many times have I told you no?” she said, pulling her hand away. “Two hundred?”

“Roxi—”

“Five hundred?”

“You’ll get what you want after I get what I want. Now grab a drink and wait with the rest of the beggars.”

Mother had watched the exchange and started toward Roxanne with a fresh martini in one hand and a second for her daughter in the other. Roxanne’s martini had extra olives. Roxanne hated olives.

“My dear girl,” Mother said, shooing Mr. Cartwright away.

“Mother’” Roxanne moved closer reaching for her hand. “How are you holding up?”

“You know how it is,” she said, robotically kissing her daughter’s cheek, tilting her face so as not to smudge her makeup. Then Mother pulled back, put her hand on her chin, and studied her daughter’s face like she was looking at a painting in a gallery. “Your eyes, dear. They’re so puffy.”

“I’ve been crying.”

“Right. That’s only natural.” Mother paused. “You know a little witch hazel or some cucumber slices will do wonders.”

“Is there any food at this thing? I’m starving.”

Mother looked Roxanne up and down, “Really? It looks like you could stand to skip a meal.”

“I don’t have time for this,” Roxanne said, turning toward the door. Mother caught her by the wrist.

“Please. Don’t go. I was able to book Chef Andres at the last minute,” Mother said. She sipped her martini and spun her titanic engagement ring around her long finger. “I honestly don’t know how I got so lucky with the short notice and all. He was so broken up about the whole affair that he dropped everything and offered to cater.”

Roxanne had almost forgotten about Mother’s charms. It was as if she played some kind of small-talk magic flute that lulled people off their guard.

“Mother, I just wanted to let you know that….”

“Your sister kept pestering me that I shouldn’t have a sit-down meal. Nag, nag, nag about a buffet—you know how she is.” Mother leaned in and whispered, “What does she know? Am I right?”

Janine was perched on an antique white couch in the living room. The 18th-century piece had been reupholstered at great expense. It looked uncomfortable. Janine also looked uncomfortable, sitting at a right angle like she learned in finishing school. Her nails were bitten down to the nub, her cuticles raw, the skin on her knuckles white and flaky and dry.

Her twin toddlers wore matching floral Dior dresses. They quietly played with a thousand-dollar set of alphabet blocks by her feet. Janine’s oldest, Chloe, a high school junior, was across the room, as far away from her mother as she could get. Chloe swiped away maniacally on her phone, lost in a haze of winky-face emojis and oblivious to the world around her.

Meanwhile, Mother was going on about some gossip she’d caught wind of at her bridge game a few weeks back. Roxanne wasn’t listening. She was focusing on the two handsome strangers fixing themselves drinks at her father’s bar. They were undressing a bottle of rare scotch with their eyes.

Her mother poked her shoulder. “Roxi, are you listening? We didn’t say anything, of course, but we all knew she’d been sleeping with her Pilates teacher.” Either Mother couldn’t tell a lie, or everything that she’d ever said had been total bullshit. After almost thirty years, Roxanne still couldn’t tell.

“He was fit, don’t get me wrong, but—”

“Mother, who are they?” Roxanne pointed to the two handsome men, now with their noses pressed into their snifters. She imagined they were muttering some kind of almost pornographic nonsense to one another about peatiness.

“What do I always say about pointing?” Mother asked.

“You say never point at something unless you plan on buying it,” Roxanne said. “Mother, you told me this would be a small intimate affair with only our—”

“Is that Chef Andres asking for me?” Mother asked, searching the air.

Roxanne didn’t hear Chef Andres asking for her.

“He’s making the roast,” Mother said. “You know the one with the peppercorn reduction?”

“Dad’s favorite.”

“You were his favorite too, you know.”

Father often told the girls he had no favorites. It was a lie—one of many. Roxanne was his favorite. He doted on her, spoiled her, and protected her from monsters.

“I know,” Roxanne admitted.

“We can chat later,” Mother said, taking the olives from her daughter’s empty martini glass.

Roxanne headed over to the bar and slid in beside the two handsome strangers. She fumbled to open a bottle of red wine with an electric corkscrew. Handsome stranger number one moved behind her and placed his large hand on the small of her back. It was a touch too intimate for a stranger but one that this man offered with a cavalier temerity.

“Can I help with that?” he asked, smiling like a used car salesman trying to unload a freshly detailed piece of shit. The man was tall with a muscular build. His voice had a higher pitch than Roxanne expected. He buttoned up his black suit jacket while watching Roxanne wrestle with the corkscrew.

“Sometimes I just get so frustrated with these things that I’d rather just smash the bottle against the wall,” she said.

“You know, glass bottles are much harder to break than most people think,” he said. “You can’t break a bottle over someone’s head like in the movies. Well, I guess you could, but you’d really have to put your back into it.”

He took the corkscrew from Roxanne, flipped a couple of buttons, and opened the bottle with ease. “I’m Brackton James. I was an associate of your father’s.”

“Thanks, I’m Roxanne.”

“I know who you are,” Brackton said, pouring her a glass of red. He handed over the drink and leaned in to catch a look at Roxanne’s cleavage.

“Maybe I’ll see you around.”

“I’m sure you will.”

He placed his hand back on her waist. She squirmed. Roxanne wanted to run, but Mother always said, “Speed is the enemy of grace.” So she stepped softly up the grand staircase. When she reached her old bedroom, she closed the door behind her.

Everything was as she remembered it. The pink wallpaper, the white shag carpet, the cheerleading trophies, and the framed Playbill from the Nutcracker at the National Ballet. Even her Stevenson Academy yearbook hadn’t been moved since she left. Roxanne opened it.

The first photo was one that, of course, starred Roxanne. She was on the dancefloor at Homecoming in that lilac dress she loved, surrounded by a group of young men with lustful looks in their eyes. As a child, she practiced what her mother preached. “One must always present herself modestly,” Mother said. But that demure sensibility only seemed to stir the fragrant elixir that drew young men toward her. No matter how effective her camouflage, the hunters found a way to track her down. Her adult life became one of polite dodging. Dodging the men at work who intentionally dropped folders for her to pick up. Dodging the men who felt entitled to brush up against her on the subway. Dodging the men who smelled her hair while she ordered a latte, or touched her body while handing her a glass of wine.

The bedroom door suddenly opened. Handsome stranger number two leaned in the doorway with his hand perched on the frame. The man was long and lean with a lush head of hair. He rubbed his beard and got into character. Thus began the dance.

“Your mother said you might be up here,” he said with an accent Roxanne couldn’t place. She thought for a second it might be fake. He stepped into the room and unbuttoned his brown corduroy jacket. Placing his scotch on Roxanne’s school desk, he closed the door behind him and started leafing through the books on her shelf.

“Don Quixote. Exquisite. I taught a course last semester on this very text. It was called from Chaucer to Cervantes,” he said, flipping through the pages.

Roxanne finished her wine. “You don’t say?”

“Yes. At Harvard,” he said, taking another step forward. He’d been practicing this dance for years. “You see, I’m a crimson man.”

Roxanne took two steps back. She also knew this dance. “I’m sorry. Do I know you?”

“Roxi, you don’t remember me? It’s Winston. Winston Ellis III, we rode together as children. You had that beautiful Mustang. What was her name again?”

“Cosette.”

“Yes, that’s right. Cosette. Did you know that Mustang comes from the Spanish word Mesteno—it means ‘wild’?”

“I didn’t know that, Mr. Ellis.”

“Please call me Winston.”

Roxanne had no earthly idea who this man was, but she had a feeling he was about to tell her.

“I settled into the professorship in Boston after finishing up my Rhodes Scholarship.”

“Impressive,” she said, not at all impressed.

“Then, of course, there was the Fulbright. Now that was something.” Winston continued, falling in and out of his accent.

“Must have been,” she said, looking at her watch.

Winston’s eyes brushed over Roxanne’s face. He stared over her shoulder at her childhood bed. She had seen this monster before—like the wild wolf who roamed the outskirts of the village looking for a wayward child to pounce on.

“Your mother says you’ve been living in the city.”

“About ten years now,” Roxanne explained, slipping to the side and standing with the desk behind her.

“She said you’re writing for The Times. Impressive.”

“Nothing quite as grand as that, I’m afraid. Just some online blogging.”

“But enjoying the city life, I’m sure,” he said, pacing in front of the bed while Roxanne crept toward the door.

“Look, I’m not sure what my mother told you, but I live in a studio apartment that’s probably smaller than your closet. The roaches live in my shoes. I only have hot water on Tuesdays and Thursdays. And the only reason I came back to this place was because of the will.”

Winston Ellis III watched her hands, seeming to admire the way Roxanne’s fingers danced as she spoke, as if she were conducting an orchestra only she could hear.

“The will?”

“Yes, the will,” she said. “What are you doing here, Winston Ellis III?”

“Your mother invited me. She mentioned that you mentioned that you’d love to see me.”

He moved closer, reaching out and taking hold of Roxanne’s arm. She quickly pretended to sneeze, wrenching her hand from his grasp to cover her mouth. It’s a move she’d perfected and one that had allowed her to escape such unwanted advances with a delicacy that saved these men from embarrassment and saved herself from any further aggression.

“I’m sorry, Winston. I think I hear my sister calling me. We’ll catch up another time, perhaps.” Roxanne wanted to run. But “speed is the enemy of grace.” So she walked gracefully through the hall as if the attempted violation had never occurred. Easing down the grand staircase, Roxanne could see Janine and Mother speaking outside the kitchen.

To the casual observer, their voices might appear courteous, their mannerisms restrained. To the casual observer, the two could be discussing something as innocuous as the weather. But Roxanne was no casual observer. They were screaming at one another with their eyes. But just as she got close enough to make out the nature of the conflict, she was pressed firmly into a dark corner of the hall by Brackton James. He locked her slender wrists in his strong hand and pressed her against the wine cellar door. A new dance began. A dance with a far more threatening rhythm.

“I’ve heard you’re looking for a nice guy to settle down with,” Brackton whispered while his thumb traced the curvature of her neck.

Tilting away from his advance, Roxanne asked, “Where’d you hear that?”

“Your mother,” he said. “Why else would I be here?”

Roxanne’s blood boiled. She tried to push him back into the light of the hallway. With some force, she was able to move him some. But she was a little drunk and tired from the drive, and he was as strong as the ogres from Father’s stories. His firm body didn’t budge much.

“My mother?” she asked. “I thought you were here for the reading of the will.”

“The will?” he asked. “Look, I’m here for whatever you want me to be here for.”

He shoved Roxanne back into the darkness. She could feel the heaviness of the cellar door against her back. It was cold. Roxanne had heard this song before and had danced with enough men to know which ones wanted to lead and which ones wanted to be led.

She leaned into him and whispered, “I know what you want.”

“Oh yeah?”

“Yeah. And I’m going to give it to you, Brackton. But you’ve got to wait for it.”

“I like this game.”

She looked down seductively at his pants and said, “I can tell you do. Go into the gardens out back. Find the gazebo. Wait for me there.”

“It’s raining, and this is a five-thousand-dollar suit!”

“I’ll meet you there,” Roxanne said, running her finger down the buttons of his shirt and pressing her lips to his stubbly cheek.

That was all it took to send the ogre scampering off into the damp evening, a victorious smile plastered across his face. He ignored the storm and his expensive suit. He was lost in the story that he’d tell “the guys” back at the tennis club.

It would start something like this, “Once upon a time…”

By the time Roxanne reached Mother and Janine, the argument had already reached its passive-aggressive conclusion. Roxanne heard Mother say as she arrived, “Janie, be a doll and fix us martinis from the bar.”

“But Mother,” Janine protested.

“I’m sorry. I thought that was a statement and not a question, Janie.”

Roxanne removed a stray hair from her mother’s dress. “Looks like I missed the fireworks,” she said.

“Roxi, a little tact, dear, is all I ask. Don’t be such a busybody,” Mother instructed while playing with her necklace.

“I learned from the best.”

“Enough, dear. Mr. Cartwright was just saying how lovely it is to see you. He went on and on about how ravishing you look given you’ve been gone for so long,” she said. “He’s right, it’s been too long.”

“Not long enough if you ask me.”

“I didn’t ask you! Always playing the role of the petulant child. You could’ve at least thanked me,” Mother said with an exaggerated wink.

“Thanked you for what? For cutting me off when I needed you most?”

“For Mr. James and Mr. Ellis. Two handsome and successful bachelors like that served up on a silver platter for you. You’re welcome.”

“The only reason I’m here is for the will. You said Father left something sizable. Now, when exactly will Mr. Cartwright be getting to that part of the evening?”

Mother looked around the room. “Your sister has finally returned with the cocktails. Why Janie, I thought you’d gotten lost,” she said.

“Sorry I took so long, Mother.”

“Jesus, Janie,” Roxanne said. “Kiss a little more ass why don’t you?”

Roxanne took her martini and slammed it home. She handed Janine the empty glass and swapped it with her sister’s full drink.

“Would you shut it already, Ms. Cosmopolitan? Nobody asked you to be here,” Janine said. Roxanne could see the lightning strikes grow more frequent from the front hall window.

“Mother asked me here,” she said. “And Dad would’ve wanted me here too. That’s why he left me—”

“Left you? Whatever he left you, I better get more. After all that man put me through,” Janine confessed.

“Cry me a river, Janie. Your life was just as privileged as mine.” Another powerful clap of thunder rumbled the ground beneath them.

“You have no idea, Roxi,” Janine said, shaking her head. “I’m not talking to you about this. That’s what mom pays my shrink for.”

“Ladies, ladies, you’re making a scene,” Mother interrupted. “At a time like this, a time of mourning, this is no place to discuss a will.”

“It’s exactly the time and place,” Roxanne said.

“We’ll get to all of that. But first, dinner is about to be served, and I could use a couple of bottles of your father’s Chateau Lafite. Andres thinks that wine would make a lovely pairing with the roast.”

Mother turned her attention towards Mr. Cartwright, sitting over at the Steinway. The legs of his beige corduroy pants were crossed, and his foot was tapping riotously on the antique Persian rug while he stared at young Chloe across the room.

“Mother, don’t,” Janine warned. Her mother pulled Mr. Cartwright’s cast iron key from her purse and eyed the cellar door. Roxanne had always been curious about what treasures her father had hidden down. She’d never been allowed in. It was always Janine.

“Roxi, maybe four or five bottles of the ’61,” Mother said, presenting Roxanne with the key.

“You sure you want me, not Janie?”

“Yes, Roxanne. Go ahead, dear.”

“Roxi, don’t,” Janine warned.

“Don’t what, Janie? Jesus, don’t be so dramatic.”

“Don’t go down there,” Janine warned again.

Mother stared down her youngest daughter while addressing her oldest, “If it’s too much trouble, Chloe could fetch those bottles for us. Couldn’t she, Janie?”

“It’s no trouble at all,” Roxanne said.

The door to the cellar was heavy. Roxanne descended the old staircase into the musky darkness. A heavy staleness lingered in the air. Her father often boasted that this collection of vintages was the greatest achievement of his life. A few sad light bulbs flickered, hanging limply from the exposed wooden beams overhead. The beams served as the structural foundation for the opulence above.

The cellar housed twenty shadowy stacks, all holding hundreds of bottles. Roxanne ran her fingers over the dusty labels. She searched and searched until she found, all the way in the darkest corner of the cellar, a single bottle resting by itself atop what appeared to be some kind of handmade wooden altar. It was swaddled in a small blue cloth.

She could no longer hear the storm outside. She could no longer hear the guests jabbering away upstairs. She could no longer hear anything until a familiar voice startled her.

“That was your father’s favorite,” Mr. Cartwright said, stepping toward her.

“Jesus! You scared me,” Roxanne exclaimed, stumbling to brace herself against the wall. “You’ll have to excuse me, Mr. Cartwright. I’m a little drunk.”

“I know. I’ve been watching you.”

“I’m sorry?”

“I’ve been watching you eye that masterpiece,” he said. “That’s the 1811 Chateau d’Yquem. That bottle is the most expensive bottle of wine on the face of the Earth.”

Roxanne picked it up and blew the dust off the label.

“Over two hundred years old—can you imagine? The wines, you know, they grow more valuable as they age?”

“I’ve heard,” she said. “But don’t tell my mother. I don’t think she subscribes to that logic.”

Mr. Cartwright chuckled. “No, I imagine she doesn’t,” he said, taking another step forward. He perused the collection and asked, “Can I help you find something?”

“Mother asked me for the ’61 Chateau Lafite. I don’t even know where to start,” she admitted.

“The Lafite is in the back. There were many a night your father and I shared a bottle of that very wine in my study. We shared a great deal, him and I.”

“In the back?” Roxanne asked, staggering into the darkness.

“He treasured this house, Roxanne. Almost as much as he treasured this collection. But then again, there is so much in this house to treasure. All of this beauty. Who could blame him?”

By the time Roxanne felt his breath, it was too late. He was upon her. Cartwright was no wayward wolf. Cartwright was no drooling ogre. He was something far more menacing. He was the dragon who circled over the kingdom for long enough to know precisely when to strike.

Cartwright thrust Roxanne up against the cold cement of the cellar walls. He held her arms firmly behind her back. She felt his hot breath on her neck as he maneuvered his hand under her dress. After a moment of desperate struggle, she wiggled her arm free, free enough to smack Cartwright. But the action only further enraged him. He pulled her closer, then slammed her struggling body back against the cement wall. A gash opened on Roxanne’s left shoulder, and she bled from a wound on the back of her head. Cartwright continued to paw and fondle her twisting body. She screamed out. He tightened his hold. She screamed again. He removed his hand from beneath Roxanne and covered her mouth. Licking her cheek with his slimy old tongue, he whispered, “Nobody can hear you up there, Roxi.” He squeezed her bruised flesh and muttered, “It’ll all be over quick, my dear.” Then he unzipped his fly.

Desperately, she got into character. She offered a submissive nod and then waited until she could see the lustful delight in his eyes before thrusting her knee upward into his groin. He fell over.

“You spoiled little bitch!” he shouted from the cold cellar floor.

Panicked, she searched for a way out, but Cartwright was already starting to rise, starting to steady himself on a rack of octogenarian Chiantis.

“You want your money?” he asked. “Then stop fussing ’til I’m done with you.”

She reached blindly into the darkness and grabbed hold of the first bottle she could find. The old man was hunched over on one knee, looking up at Roxanne with watery eyes.

“Your mother said you’d play along.”

“My mother?”

“Why do you think we’re here?” he asked. “We had a deal.”

“What deal?”

“Give me what I want, and you can have it all,” he said.

She held the neck of the bottle firmly. It was the 1811 Chateau d’Yquem—her father’s great treasure. Roxanne smashed the bottle over the old man’s face. It didn’t break. Glass bottles are harder to break than people think. She watched him moan and apply pressure to a bleeding hole that opened under his left eye. She swung the bottle down again. This time it shattered. The old man’s blood and the priceless vintage pooled beneath him.

Staggering up the stairs, Roxanne was lost in the fog of unprompted violence. The cellar door felt heavier than she remembered. Bloody, weeping, and disheveled, she heaved it open and wandered into the foyer. The guests, mouths agape, looked on as Roxanne stopped underneath the crystal chandelier. Janine was back on the fancy couch in the living room, a blank look on her face.

Roxanne saw Mother silently motioning for her. But Mother had gone too far. Roxanne spun around and sprinted from the mansion as fast as her legs would carry her. Mother caught up with her on the main lawn. “Roxi, wait!”

“No, Mother!”

“Roxi—”

“No, Mother, it’s my turn to speak!” Roxanne’s screams were like an avalanche. Fractured sheets of a layered past, powerfully unleashed after years and years of freezing below the surface. “I should’ve seen it! My God, poor Janie. I should’ve stopped you years ago! But I left. I ran.”

“Roxi…”

A crowd gathered outside to watch as the landscaping lights illuminated Roxanne. She screamed from her lectern, “It’s people like you. Powerful women who enable powerful men to do terrible things. How many Cartwrights have you sent down there after Janie for all these years? Five? Ten? A hundred?”

“Roxi, please—”

“What, mother? What can you possibly say after sending that monster after me?”

“Oh, my dear girl,” Mother began, her arms falling limply and her eyes seeming to soften.

“What?” Roxanne yelled.

“Just a little witch hazel or cucumber slices will do wonders for those bags under your eyes.”

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Jeremy Stelzner

Jeremy Stelzner’s stories have appeared in the 2024 Coolest American Stories Anthology, Across the Margin Magazine, Half and One Magazine, The Jewish Literary Journal, the 2023 Stories that Need to be Told anthology, The After Happy Hour Journal of Literature and Art, and he was recently named runner-up for the 2024 Prime Number Magazine Award for Short Fiction. He is a graduate of the Creative Writing program at the Harvard Extension School and teaches literature and journalism in Maryland. You can reach him by email at jeremystelzner71@gmail.com

Come Find Me, Mummy by Rosetta Yorke

The Manor House, 1979

Debbie Grainger would never have given the floor-length, black velvet curtain a second glance if her three-year-old daughter hadn’t run on ahead and hidden behind it, leaving just the toes of her scarlet, patent leather shoes peeping out like two tiny pools of blood in the dust.

“Come find me, Mummy!”

“One, two, three…”

Debbie scribbled a description of a cobwebby mahogany whatnot.

“Four, five, six…”

Next, she catalogued the gleaming ebony-framed photograph displayed on it.

Photograph: Five blurred boys, dressed up in dark sailor-collar jackets, posed around a white-clad little girl with ringlets whose propped-up posture, painted-on eyes, and unnaturally sharp focus proclaimed her deceased state.

Debbie wrinkled her nose. Poor kids. What a ghoulish memento mori.

“Seven, eight…”

She snapped her notepad shut and slid it into her bag. “Mummy’s all finished now, princess. Time to go home.” She wiped her hands on her hanky.

She’d done it, proved herself their equal. Now Father would have to let her join the family business. No more cooking and cleaning for her. She’d be a Grainger & Sons Senior Valuations Expert one day.

The curtain billowed out. It swallowed up Poppy’s shoes, and smothered her high-pitched cry of delight, before deflating again.

“…Nine, ten. Ready or not, here comes Mummy.”

Debbie pulled the musty velvet aside and discovered no Poppy, only a closed door. Muffled giggles reverberated through it.

She’d nearly missed a whole room? Father’s spittle would have blasted his desk into a wasteland. Laid low with flu, he’d only let her catalog the Manor’s contents for its forthcoming auction because her half-brothers had feigned having his symptoms, too, to dodge the task. Even then, he’d given her a list of instructions and demanded she catch up on her chores the moment she returned.

“You won’t stick five minutes in that creepy place,” James had said out of Father’s earshot, whilst Andrew, his lip curling, had mimicked slashing his throat. “We’re not nursemaiding your brat. Take her with you.”

Debbie’s skin tingled with sweat. Thank goodness she had.

She turned the black doorknob and pushed. The door creaked but didn’t budge. She shoved her shoulder against it. Still, it resisted. She pressed her ear to the wooden panel.

“Here’s your milk. I want fizzy pop.” Poppy’s cadence exuded enthusiasm.

“Unlock the door, princess. Now.”

“One fairy cake for you, one for me.”

Debbie fished in her bag for the housekeeper’s ring and selected a dull brass skeleton key. She slid it into the lock. It met no obstruction from the other side, but only turned a quarter before stalling. Anticlockwise, however, it turned full circle. She clicked it back. The door wasn’t locked. Why wouldn’t it open? She rattled the knob.

The door gave way, catapulting her into a gloomy room full of turn-of-the-century toys. The nursery was spotless, with not a cobweb or speck of dust anywhere. Except for the cheerless grate, and the rivulets of condensation running down the outside of the bay window’s ivy-enmeshed panes, the nanny and her charges might have just stepped out for an afternoon’s walk in the autumnal grounds. Goose pimples peppered Debbie’s arms.

“Look, Mummy!” Poppy sat cross-legged on the rug, cuddling a large apricot-colored teddy bear against her pink, daisy-print dress. She’d set two little china cups, saucers, and plates with realistic fairy cakes out in front of her.

“I told you not to touch anything without asking. Give me the bear, please.”

Poppy’s lip trembled, but she obeyed.

Soft, silky mohair with shoe-button eyes and an elephant-embossed metal button piercing its ear, it was a rare 1904 Steiff. Debbie’s stomach fluttered. She turned the bear over to examine its hump and discovered a huge black spider squatting there on hairy pipe cleaner legs. She dropped the bear, stifling a cry.

The spider flopped off, crinkling its front legs together. Debbie stomped her platform shoe on it, but it scuttled away, squeezed into a crack beneath the dado rail and disappeared. Debbie retrieved the bear. Holding it gingerly by one paw, she sat it on the window seat.

Poppy wailed in protest.

Debbie pulled out her Polaroid camera. She activated its flash unit, retreating until she’d filled the viewfinder with the room’s contents.

“Come here, Poppy.” When her daughter had trudged across to her, Debbie depressed the button. She put the photograph that emerged on the circular table to develop. “Good girl. Now you may play, carefully. But not with that.” She whisked the bear up onto the top of a freestanding cabinet, out of reach.

Poppy cast it a wistful glance but settled down with a Noah’s Ark instead. She paired up the animals, marched them across the rug to a wooden train and loaded them into its trucks.

Debbie cataloged the ark, train, and a dappled rocking horse before checking the photograph. The blue protective film covering had hardly faded. She frowned. The other rooms’ photos had developed within fifteen minutes. Holding it by one corner, she shook it.

She turned her attention to the bookshelf and discovered a first edition of Grimm’s Fairy Tales. The original version, filled with stories of murder, decapitation, and cannibalism. She tugged her cowl-necked jumper out of her bag and pulled it on over her head, relishing the sudden warmth.

Engrossed in her game, Poppy shook her head when Debbie offered her cardigan, saying she wasn’t cold. She chuffed the train over to the rocking horse. Having unloaded Noah’s animals into make-believe fields, she clambered onto the hoof rail of the rocking horse’s swing stand. She bounced up and down but wasn’t tall enough to pull herself any further up.

“Help me?” she asked.

“In a minute, princess.” Debbie flicked through a bulging scrapbook, pausing to note down a chromolithograph illustration of “Little Polly Flinders.” When the rocking horse creaked, she looked up in alarm. Poppy sat astride the horse holding its reins. “How did you get up there?”

“Becca help.” Poppy stroked the flowing mane.

Debbie hurried over to show her how to make the horse move.

“No, Mummy. Becca do it.” The horse jerked forward on cue and its hoof rail struck Debbie’s shin bone so hard she yelped. The horse galloped, tail streaming out behind it. “Faster, faster.” Poppy’s beribboned pigtails flapped, and her eyes sparkled.

“Don’t rock too hard, or you might fall off.” Debbie limped to the table. A greenish tint, dark as the yew trees outside, had replaced much of the Poloroid’s blue layer, but little of the nursery was visible even after half an hour. She pulled out the camera’s instruction manual. The troubleshooting page suggested the image was too cold and recommended putting it in an inside pocket to warm up. But her blouse didn’t have one and it might get bent in the back pocket of her flares. With a sudden brainwave, she slid it inside her bra. It would soon warm up there, if it wasn’t too late to save the image. Best to take another photo, though, to be on the safe side. But the camera’s frame counter read zero and she’d used up all her film cartridges. She’d have to be accurate in her cataloging then.

“I’m coming.” Poppy’s feet whumped onto the floor. Giggling, she scampered over to the cabinet on which Debbie had sat the Steiff bear. The doors swung open before she reached it, to reveal a three-story doll’s house interior.

They can’t have been fully shut. Debbie hobbled across to look over Poppy’s shoulder. The twelve rooms of various sizes bore a striking resemblance—in both décor and contents—to ones in the manor, right down to the wicker bath chair in the conservatory, and the pair of floor-standing terrestrial and celestial globes in the library. A narrow staircase connected each story and miniature dolls in various poses inhabited every room.

“The mummy and daddy are still asleep.” Poppy pointed to two figures—a man with a top hat and umbrella, and a woman in a nanny’s uniform—lying together on the four-poster bed in the master bedroom.

Not exactly. Debbie stifled a smile. Easy to see who the most maternal figure in the nursery occupants’ lives had been.

The mother doll was receiving guests in the drawing room. A sailor-suited boy lay at the bottom of the lower staircase as if he’d been sliding down the banister and had fallen off. In the nursery, a girl was propped on the window seat looking out as if waiting for someone. Debbie took a smaller girl from the music room’s piano and balanced her on the miniature rocking horse’s back.

“There. That’s like you and Becca,” she said.

Poppy beamed. “Play here forever?”

“Not forever, princess. It’ll be time to go home as soon as Mummy’s finished her work. But you can play until then.” Maybe, if Father let her join the business, she’d have the money for toys like those one day.

Debbie cataloged the doll’s house, a pull-along elephant on wheels, and a boxed game of spellicans with carved ivory strips. In the background, she heard Poppy pretending the girl dolls were taking turns to play hide and seek in the nursery.

Debbie lifted a framed needlework sampler down onto the table. Who’d make a child use nothing but black thread on pale linen? It must have taken her months to work that border of alternating cone-shaped yew trees and spider’s web motifs before she even started on that central, stylized manor with its Gothic turrets and shuttered windows. She read the verse below the house, the hairs lifting on the back of her neck:

When I am dead and in my grave

And all my bones are rotten

For this you sea remember Me

That I are not forgotten.

Rebecca Staveley made me.

Aged Five.

In the Year of Our Lord 1905.

How could that ever have been considered a suitable text for a child to stitch day after day and then have hanging on her nursery wall, further demoralizing her spirits? 1905, that would make Rebecca almost eighty now. She’d stitched her name and age with real hair, and a reddish-brown spot on the linen suggested she’d pricked her finger on her needle at one point. Maybe she was the person selling the property? If only Father had entrusted Debbie with the manor’s paperwork, she’d have known.

Ivy tendrils tapped on the windowpanes making her jump. The sound echoed in the silent room.

Silent? She swung round to the cabinet. Poppy wasn’t there. Nor was the teddy bear. How had she managed to reach it?

“Bring it back, now, Poppy. I told you not to touch it.”

Nothing stirred, except for her breath drifting white in the deepening gloom. She hadn’t realized how late it was. She’d have to abandon cataloging the rest of the nursery for today. Poppy must be starving.

She softened her tone. “Time to go home, princess.”

“Come find us, Mummy.”

“One last game then.” She speed-counted to ten. “Ready or not, here I come.” She made a show of looking behind the nursing chair. “Where are you?” she called in a sing-song voice.  She looked behind the toy pram, and fireguard. Then—pouncing behind the obvious sofa—she called, “Found you.” But there was no Poppy and no bear. She’d done a good job of hiding this time.

When Debbie peered into the emptiness under the circular table, a sharp point dug into her breast. She pulled the Poloroid out of her bra, straightened its bent corner, and massaged her bruised flesh. She turned the snapshot over.

The nursery’s image had finally emerged. Everything—walls, toys, furniture—was tinted in shades of dark green. Everything, except for an eerie, verdigris-colored little girl with ringlets who sat cross-legged on the rug next to two China teacups, saucers, and plates with fairy cakes.

Becca. Not a cute name for a rocking horse, but for a child—Rebecca—who’d finished stitching her sampler over seventy years ago. And whose death had been commemorated in the macabre memento mori photograph of her with her brothers, taken not long afterwards.

Debbie’s knuckles whitened as she gripped the Polaroid. She swung round and stared at the floor. No ghostly figure sat there. Just a grubby tea set arranged on a dusty rug and two charcoal-grey lumps of desiccated mold that had once been fairy cakes. Poppy’s cake, sprinkled with tiny, fossilized maggots, had had a bite taken out of it.

Debbie’s skin crawled. She looked at the rest of the room as the nursery decayed around her.

She croaked Poppy’s name. As she searched again in all the places she’d already searched before, a cobweb strand caught on her hair. Its end pulled free from the ceiling and drifted down to stroke her cheek. She dashed it away, but it stuck to her hand. She wiped it off on the nursing chair’s cushion and the rotten fabric split down the middle.

Why were the cabinet’s doors shut? She yanked them open and scanned the dollhouse rooms inside. Poppy hadn’t moved anything, except in the nursery where she’d left both girl dolls sitting on the window seat, half hidden by the curtains, with the rocking horse angled to watch them. Debbie picked the dolls up and studied them. She’d been pretending they were playing hide and seek—what if she’d also been pretending they were her and the ghostly Becca?

Debbie shot over to the bay window, but Poppy wasn’t hiding behind either of the curtains. She slumped on the seat cushion. The dolls fell from her limp fingers onto the floor. She made no attempt to retrieve them.

If Poppy wasn’t there, she must have left the nursery to find a better hiding place. She’d be waiting to jump out and shout ‘boo’. Giddy with relief, Debbie leapt up. As she did so, her heel struck the window seat’s base with the resounding thud of a hollow storage space.

Debbie yanked the striped cushion aside and wrenched open the heavy lid. Two little girls lay curled inside. The larger one, in a yellowing white lace dress, had her bony arm draped across the smaller one’s daisy-printed Peter Pan collar, with the apricot teddy bear cuddled between them. Their empty eye sockets and grotesque, double-row sets of milk-and-adult teeth grinned up at her from one ringleted and one pigtailed skull.

Debbie recoiled, her stomach heaving. Her heel crunched on one of the miniature dolls.

Poppy’s skeleton shattered, its shards scratching Debbie’s face like a toddler’s jagged fingernails. The teddy bear slumped into the hollow where Poppy’s ribs had been. A large, black, hairy-legged spider scuttled out of the debris and climbed into her one remaining eye socket.

Beads of blood ran down Debbie’s cheeks. She was still screaming when the police broke down the nursery door to reach her.

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Rosetta Yorke

Rosetta Yorke lives in North Yorkshire, UK. She writes horror, sci-fi and Gothic romance short stories and flash fiction. Her stories can be found in anthologies by Black Hare Press, Undertaker Books, HorrorAddicts.net, Dragon Soul Press, and Dark Rose Press. See her website and social media for more.

Elevated Tensions by Gemini Cross

The elevator lurched violently, slamming Rhea against the mirrored wall. She winced as the dim fluorescent light flickered, then died, swallowing her in darkness. Her breath hitched as the hum of machinery went silent, leaving only the echo of her ”acing heartbeat—and Dominic’s slow, measured breaths from across the small, suffocating space.

“Of course,” she muttered under her breath, fumbling in the dark for the panel, pressing buttons that no longer lit up. “Stuck in here with you.”

Dominic’s voice drifted out of the shadows, calm, but with an edge that made her skin crawl. “You say that like I’m the one who planned it.”

Her stomach tightened. Dominic always had a way of making her uncomfortable, of twisting every situation into something darker. Something unnerving.

“Why wouldn’t you?” she snapped, trying to hide the unease creeping into her voice. “You’re always pulling something. Coasting by with that smug grin, making everything worse.”

There was a long silence. Then, slowly, Dominic’s voice slid through the dark, closer now. “Worse for you, maybe. Not for me.”

Rhea’s breath quickened, her pulse thrumming in her ears. The space around her felt smaller, the walls pressing in. “You think you’re so clever, don’t you? Always trying to get under my skin.”

He chuckled, the sound low, dangerous. “Maybe I don’t have to try so hard.”

The elevator creaked, the sound of metal grinding against metal making Rhea’s skin prickle. She reached out blindly, her fingers brushing something cold—Dominic’s arm. She snatched her hand back as if burned, her pulse spiking.

“You alright?” His voice was soft now, almost caring, but there was something too smooth, too practiced about it.

“I’m fine,” she lied, her voice barely audible.

“Are you?” he whispered, and she swore she could feel his breath on her skin.

The darkness seemed to grow thicker, swallowing her whole. Her fingers fumbled, trying to find the wall, the panel—anything to ground her. But the space felt wrong, too tight, too close. Was it shrinking? Or was that just her mind playing tricks on her?

“It’s funny,” Dominic said, his voice floating through the blackness. “How you think you’re in control of everything. But look at you now. You can’t control a damn thing.”

“Shut up,” Rhea hissed, the panic rising in her chest.

“Why?” he asked, his voice curling around her like smoke. “You’re not scared, are you?”

Her throat tightened. He was closer now. She could feel it. His presence was oppressive, overwhelming, filling every inch of the tiny space.

“I said shut up, Dominic,” she snapped, but the words came out weaker than she’d intended.

A soft chuckle. “You know what’s funny, Rhea? I’m not even here.”

The words hung in the air, twisting around her like a noose. She blinked, confusion and fear tangling together. “What?”

“I’m not real,” he whispered, his voice turning cold, sinister. “I never was.”

Her heart pounded. Her breath came in short, ragged gasps. “What the hell are you talking about?”

“Think about it,” he said, the words dripping with amusement. “All those times you thought you saw me, heard me. All those moments where you blamed me for everything going wrong. It wasn’t me, Rhea. It was never me.”

Rhea pressed herself against the cold wall, her mind racing, fragments of memory flashing before her eyes. Dominic laughing at her frustration. Dominic smirking when things went wrong. But was he ever really… there?

“No,” she whispered, shaking her head. “No, you’re real. I’ve worked with you for two years.”

His voice was soft now, almost pitying. “Have you? Or have you just been seeing what your mind wants to see?”

The elevator let out a groaning creak, and the lights flickered, dimly illuminating the space for just a second. In the flash of light, Rhea looked across the elevator—only to see that it was empty.

Dominic wasn’t there.

The lights died again, plunging her back into darkness, and she felt the world tilt beneath her feet.

“I’m always with you, Rhea,” Dominic’s voice whispered, but this time it wasn’t from across the elevator—it was inside her own head.

The walls felt like they were closing in, the air thick and heavy. She couldn’t breathe. Couldn’t think. Her knees buckled, and she slid down to the floor, gasping for air, her vision swimming.

“It’s your mind, Rhea,” he continued, his voice softer, closer. “You’ve been alone this whole time. I’m just the voice you created, the one that feeds on your fear.”

“No,” she whimpered, clutching her head, trying to drown out the sound of his voice. But it was everywhere. Surrounding her. Inside her.

“Yes,” he whispered. “You’ve always been alone. And now? Now you can’t escape me.”

Her chest constricted, panic clawing at her throat. The elevator felt like a tomb, the darkness pressing in from all sides. She couldn’t escape. Not from this. Not from him. Because he wasn’t real.

But he was. He had to be.

Right?

The lights flickered on again, and she looked up—only to find herself alone in the elevator. There was no sign of Dominic. No sound. No presence.

Just her.

Rhea staggered to her feet as the doors slid open, revealing the bright, empty lobby. But the suffocating weight of Dominic’s voice lingered, coiling inside her like a parasite, feeding on her fear.

And as she stepped out of the elevator, her breath shaky, her hands trembling, she knew the truth.

He would always be with her.

Because Dominic wasn’t a person.

He was her darkness. Her fear. The manifestation of everything she couldn’t control.

And now, he was a part of her.

Forever.

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Gemini Cross

Gemini’s fiction writing style is marked by intense, character-driven narratives that seamlessly blend action and suspense with emotional depth. His stories often explore complex relationships and moral dilemmas, delving into the consequences of choices made in high-stakes scenarios. With a focus on strong, multifaceted characters, He crafts gripping tales that resonate with readers on both a thrilling and emotional level.

Sacrificium – Part Three by Andrea Modenos Ash

The next day’s memories unfold, like blurred edges of a burnt photograph. The interrogations, the accusations. 

“You killed a cat! The neighborhood bodega cat!”

“You robbed the store. You stole booze and gum, and bags of bread.”

“There were homeless men and drugs. Your clothes were torn!”

The police swarmed around me, like flies on a dead bird, and escorted me to their cold cement lair. Men and women in dark-stained suits with even darker circles under their eyes, blackened my fingertips, blinded light in my face, and swabbed between my legs.

And just when I thought they would set me free, as I plotted my return to the wildness, the freedom, the magic…other men in different uniforms, pushing a wheeled chair with straps, grabbed at me.

“You have to go back to the hospital,” my husband said as the men put me in the chair and strapped me in. I didn’t struggle. My mother-in-law, holding my baby in one hand, shook my full pill bottle with the other, like a smoking gun, in my face.

“You never took your pills!” she screeched. “You liar!”

“I don’t need them anymore,” I said as my baby cried. I reached my hand out to her, but they whisked me away, swiftly out of the building, and into a chariot donned with flashing lights. As I was bounced around in my chair, I tried to focus on the two small dirty windows in the back. The city whipped past me in a technicolor blur, as if I were racing towards the end of the Earth.

And then nothing but days upon days in a white room with bars on the windows and heavy padlocks on the door. A needle pierced my arm. I was woozy and in and out of consciousness as men and women in white clothes spoke to me, questioned me, poked and prodded me. I was in a mist, as if trapped with the Lotus Eaters, no desire for anything but more haze. No yearning to move off this island. The eagle screeched by my window, never leaving me, but as the days passed, the sound dulled, and eventually the eagle disappeared completely. All I hear now is a pounding in my head, a flat white noise, an echo of nothing.

My husband calls, but he doesn’t come to see me. They hand me the phone and stand in the room while we talk. The conversation is always the same: The baby is fine, she misses you. How are you feeling? Better? Just get better. OK, talk to you soon.

It is always a one-way conversation.

And then one day, the doctors enter at their usual time, but behind them, a male nurse. His head is down as he finally removes the IV out of my arm. The doctors are speaking, but I don’t care to hear what they are saying. I can only stare at the nurse. I can’t see his face, but his skin, it frightens me. He is thin, his skin almost translucent, the blue veins on his hands throb with the pulse of the pounding in my chest and in my head. His hands are ice cold, like the dead in the grave. I hold my breath.

“You can take pills now,” one doctor says, and the creature nurse with his head downcast hands me a large white pill and holds a cup of water. I put it in my mouth. It is dry, and the chalk dust chokes my throat. The doctors leave, and now I am alone with Death. I put my hand out for the cup.

“Spit it out!” he whisper-hisses, and holds his hand out to me. I open my mouth, but he pushes my head down.

“Not like that. The cameras are watching.”

I understand. I lower my head to hide my spitting into his skeletal hand. He squeezes it so tight, it explodes into dust.

An owl hoots outside the room. I snap my head towards the grimy window covered with bars. I hear it again, this time louder, closer. Where is it?

“It’s inside of you,” the Death nurse says aloud, and then turns away from me to leave.

“Wait,” I cry, but he doesn’t stop. “WAIT!” He stops short and turns and lifts his head up to me. I gasp. His face is bony, hollow, no hair on his head. He is gray, as if he has never seen the sun. More blue veins mar his face. His eyes are stark blue.

“It’s inside of you,” he says, his corpse face unchanging. He leaves, locking the door behind him with a loud metal clang.

And thus, it goes for days. The cold, dead nurse comes and hands me the pill, and then, with my head bent away from the cameras, I spit it back in his hand. And he leaves and locks the door behind him, the keys on his belt jingling, the door slamming so hard it shakes my insides for an hour.

Until today.

I spit out the pill. He doesn’t leave.

“Can you hear it?” he asks.

“The owl?”

He nods. And then I hear it screech, inside my head, threatening to split it open. I see its flaming orange eyes behind my eyes, its beak in my mouth, its talons in my hand.

“You’re becoming,” he says. “Spit.”

I comply, and he crushes the pill and smiles. His fangs glare in the false light, and he turns and exits, but this time he leaves the door open.

Cautious, I climb out of my bed, and peer into the hallway. It is desolate. I exit and walk the long corridor. It smells of Clorox, rubber, piss. The walls are painted a dingy gray, the windows and doors barred. Everything is locked. I turn a corner and smack into a young woman who is frantic, clutching a doll.

“Is he following me?” she cries. She is scared, looking around. She pulls at her eyebrows, plucking them. Her long blonde hair is thin, matted. She is so pale I can see the blood rushing behind her eyes.

“I want to go home,” she says. “My mother doesn’t know where I am. I have to find her!” The owl screeches inside of me, and I turn my gaze. The Death nurse is watching her from the shadows.

“Is he following me?”

“I don’t think so,” I lie.

She tries to open the door leading to the exit from the hallway.

“Can you open the door? I want to go home!”

I try, but it won’t open.

“It’s locked, you stupid fools!” A laughing squawk.

I whip around. A dark woman stands before me, smiling. Her eyes are painted with heavy black kohl, her long dark hair curls, almost snake-like, around her whole body.

“Stupid ugly bitches!” she says. She laughs and then flashes her tit at me. Then her dark eyes blaze crystal blue. Just like the others. She rushes away from me. I try to follow her, but then I am grabbed.

“Time for your appointment.” The Death nurse turns me towards a group

of doctors in white coats with clipboards, glasses, and pens. As the doctors escort me away, I watch him stalk the young woman down the corridor.

I sit in a chair and the doctors question me over and over. “Why do you think you did what you did?” “Do you still believe what you saw?” “How do you feel?” “Do you want to hurt yourself?” “Do you want to hurt your baby, hurt more animals?”

“No,” I answer.

“Do you know why you’re here?”

“I killed a cat?”

“Were you raped?”

“No.”

“Why did you kill the cat?”

“I don’t know.”

“You told the police you were on a hunt, that you were hunting a lion.”

A memory flashes, the smell of blood, the ecstasy of the kill. The screaming. I want to smile, but I dare not.

“I don’t remember,” I say. The owl screeches again. I instinctively snap my head up.

“What do you hear?” the doctor asks. “Do you hear voices in your head? Does the TV talk to you?”

“I don’t hear anything,” I say. And then they shake their heads, scribble in their notepads, and then leave.

***

I sit alone in my room. The owl doesn’t stop screaming now. Inside of me, it is scratching, scratching, at the inside of my skull, desperate to escape. The long-haired dark woman appears in my doorway. She walks towards me seductively with a lit cigarette. She smiles, licking her lips. A piece of tobacco sits on the tip of her tongue. She spits it onto her finger and then flicks it. She takes a deep drag.

“They’re waiting for you.”

“Who?”

She huffs, takes another drag, then spits again and puts the cigarette out on the floor.

“You gave them power, but not enough. They need you.”

The owl screeches in my head and tears at the bone of my skull.

“For what?”

“Come now, you don’t remember any of it?” She leans in, her body reeks of sour sweat and old perfume, cigarettes. She pushes me back on the bed. She sticks her tongue in my mouth and grabs my hand. She puts it in between her legs and grinds on it, writhing on top of me.

“We have wandered the Earth for over two thousand years!” she whispers in my ear, stopping her grinding and grabbing my face. “Our father, our king—his throne destroyed, our powers taken. Nothing was left for us. No more succulent fat dripping from the spring lambs to cover our altars. No more gold coins and gifts to beg for our mercy. No more virgins tethered to our temples for our limitless pleasure. Once, I could make a man disintegrate in ecstasy with just one glance. Now we are nothing. Homeless drifters, full of pestilence and rot.”

She resumes her grinding, moaning, panting.

“We searched for you, she who fights in the front. We searched for you to set us free, and we finally find you!” She screams and finishes, her hot cigarette breath in my face. I turn away.

“Only you can give us our power back.”

“How?”

“Bring us a gift.”

“An offering?”

“A sacrifice.”

“But I did!”

“No! A true sacrifice.”

“I can’t,” I say.

“Yes, you can, because you are one of us. And you are the only one who can set us free.” She climbs off my bed and disappears from my room.

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Andrea Modenos Ash

Andrea Modenos Ash is a hard-working, full-time accountant and mom by day, and a writer of all things strange by night. She has a degree in Classical Studies, and her love for the gods has continued through her writing. She lives in Long Island with her family and a menagerie of pets: two dogs, two guinea pigs, a hamster, a gecko, and a bunch of fish. Her dream is to be a full-time writer, organizing and reconciling words instead of numbers.

The Movers – Part Two by Zack Zagranis

Jeremy woke up alone in a hospital bed. He tried to turn his head, but the pain made him wince. He gingerly touched the bandage wrapped around his head as he surveyed the room as best he could, moving only his eyes. There was no sign of any extradimensional terrors. Jeremy wanted to blame it all on a nervous breakdown, but he could still feel the blood crusted inside his nostrils and the tenderness in the back of his eyes.

Jeremy’s empty stomach growled, and he pushed the call button to summon a nurse. A minute later, a middle-aged man in scrubs shuffled into his room, driven by a human-sized earwig. The earwig clung to the nurse’s neck with its pincers while it used its antennae to move the man’s legs.

Jeremy screamed, and the earwig pumped the nurse’s legs faster.

“It’s ok, it’s ok,” said the nurse.

 The earwig lifted the nurse’s arms and held his palms out, facing Jeremy.

“It’s on you! Don’t you feel it?” he asked the nurse hysterically.

The earwig contorted the nurse’s body so he could inspect himself.

“I don’t see anything.” The nurse said with a shrug.

“Of course you don’t.” Jeremy sighed. “I’m the only one who can see them, apparently.”

“What is it you think you’re seeing?” asked the nurse condescendingly.

“I don’t think I’m seeing anything,” Jeremy said defiantly. “I know I am.”

“Ok,” said the nurse more sincerely this time. “What are you seeing?”

“The movers,” he whispered.

“Pardon?”

“Creatures that are moving everything. One is moving you around like a puppet right now!”

“I see,” said the nurse. “I’m going to get a doctor to help you. I’ll be right back.”

The earwig turned the nurse around and marched him out of the room. Jeremy thought he saw the giant insect turn slightly and observe him with one of its eyes before it left.

An amorphous blob carried the doctor in to see him. Jeremy tried to get a good look at the gelatinous creature without staring at it directly, but it was useless. The ill-defined mass had a form too alien for his brain to decode. Instead, his brain gave up and generated something resembling a Jell-O mold. Sometimes, a familiar body part like an eye or a tooth would float to the creature’s surface briefly before disappearing into the translucent goo.

“Hello, I’m Doctor Kim. I hear you’ve had some disturbing visions—”

“They’re NOT visions!” said Jeremy, unable to hide the frustration in his voice. “They aren’t hallucinations, and I’m not on drugs either.”

“I apologize,” the doctor said in a soothing voice. “Can you explain what you’re seeing?”

The blob oozed Doctor Kim over to a chair in the corner and dragged them both to the foot of Jeremy’s bed.

He swallowed to lubricate his dry throat

“Look, I’m not crazy,” he told the doctor.

“No one said you were,” she responded calmly.

“It’s just…this is going to sound nuts, ok? But…” he swallowed again.

“Would you like me to get you some water?” Doctor Kim offered.

Jeremy imagined the gloppy, semi-fluid monstrosity stretching out a tendril of slime and wrapping it around a drinking glass. The thought was enough to twist his empty stomach into a pretzel.

“No, thank you.”

“Ok, but if you change your mind…” the doctor trailed off. She saw the feral desperation in his eyes, and it scared her.

“I-I woke up this morning and started seeing monsters everywhere,” Jeremy confessed.

“What kind of monsters? Can you describe them?”

“No. I mean, yes. Kind of. It hurts to look at them directly. They shimmer and seem to change as you look at them. If you glance at them from the corner of your eye, you can get a better look, but not much.”

“It hurts to look at these monsters?” The doctor frowned.

Jeremy nodded his head.

“I think they exist in a dimension higher than ours. I can only see part of the creatures, whatever spills over into our dimension. My brain has to make up the rest.”

The blob contorted Doctor Kim’s face into a puzzled expression.

“I’m not sure I understand what you mean.”

“Forget it,” he sighed. “Let’s just say these things are disgusting. Terrifying monsters with teeth that won’t fit in their mouths and claws the size of steak knives. Some of them have tentacles like an octopus, and some are insects. The one controlling you right now is like a melty Jell-O monster.”

He watched the blob use its strands of dripping goo to shape the doctor’s lips into the words. “There’s a monster controlling me right now?” It was surreal. He laughed, surprising the doctor.

“Yeah, there is. Every time you talk, it moves your lips. Whenever you think you’re moving an arm or a leg, it’s a big pile of snot posing you like a doll.”

Doctor Kim looked at Jeremy with a mixture of pity and apprehension.

“Why do you think these monsters from outer space have taken everyone over? Is it some kind of invasion or—”

“No!” he cut her off curtly. “Not outer space…at least I don’t think…and they didn’t take everyone over like Invasion of the Body Snatchers or something. They’re just there. Moving everything. I think they’ve always been there.”

“And you’ve seen these creatures before today?” asked Doctor Kim.

“No. I never even knew these things existed before today. I don’t think we’re supposed to see them. They’re like invisible puppeteers, cogs making the world run.”

“I’m not following,” said the doctor apologetically.

Jeremy sighed and tried again.

“What do you know about Greek philosophy?”

“Not much, I’m afraid,” the doctor confessed. “I know Hippocrates because of the oath, but that’s about it.”

“It doesn’t matter,” he said with a wave of his hand. “Have you ever heard of Zeno’s paradoxes?”

“Can’t say that I have.”

“The arrow paradox?”

“Maybe you could just say what you want to say directly instead of quizzing me on ancient history?” asked Doctor Kim curtly.

“Yeah, sorry,” said Jeremy. “Zeno was a Greek philosopher who set out to prove that movement is an illusion using various thought experiments. One of them involves an arrow.”

“Ok, I’m with you so far.”

“Let’s say an arrow is flying toward a target,” he continued. “If you took a picture of the arrow at any time along its flight, it would be a static image, correct?”

“Sure.”

“Now you could theoretically take an infinite number of pictures before the arrow reached the target,” he said, slipping into teacher mode. “And each one of those pictures would show a still arrow, not moving. Still following?”

“I think so,” said Doctor Kim, unsure of her answer.

“So if you can break the flight of an arrow into an infinite amount of moments where the arrow is motionless, that must mean that the arrow never moves, right? Meaning movement is an illusion.”

The blob positioned Doctor Kim’s body in a stance reminiscent of The Thinker. Every time the gelatinous mass touched the doctor, it left a trail of slime. It broke his brain to think she couldn’t feel it oozing down her cheeks.

“That’s an interesting thought experiment, but you and I both know things and people do move.”

“Of course, I told you I’m not crazy,” Jeremy said defensively. “But what if what you and I know isn’t the whole story?”

“How so?” asked Doctor Kim, humoring him.

“Based on what I’ve seen today, I think motion is an illusion. An illusion doesn’t necessarily mean something doesn’t occur. When a magician pulls a rabbit out of a hat, he’s still pulling a rabbit out of a hat. Whether he conjured the rabbit out of thin air, or it was hiding in a secret compartment under the magician’s table is irrelevant. Yes, we get from point A to point B, but what if it’s not of our own volition? What if cosmic entities beyond our comprehension move us to and fro like chess pieces?”

“It’s a little hard to swallow, Mr. Collins.” Doctor Kim said with a smirk. “I like sci-fi as much as the next person, but I’m not sure I buy Cthulhu rolling my car home for me every night.”

“Of course it’s hard to swallow,” Jeremy agreed. He wasn’t sure he would believe it if he hadn’t been tortured all day with this unasked-for peek behind the celestial curtain.

“So these monsters are pushing and pulling anything that moves, right?”

He nodded. Doctor Kim reached into her coat pocket and took out a pen. She turned it over a few times in her hand.

“What happens if I throw this pen?”

“The pile of goo behind you will reach forward and grab it. Then it will guide it to the floor.”

The “pile of goo” grabbed the doctor’s hand and returned the pen to her jacket.

“Let’s change subjects,” said Doctor Kim, the blob correcting her posture as she spoke. “Do you know why you’re here?”

“I assume it had something to do with me bashing my head into the sidewalk.” Jeremy reached up again without thinking and touched the bandage around his head.

“You assume correctly,” said Doctor Kim. “Why were you doing that to yourself?”

“I was trying to get them to stop,” he whispered wearily.

“If the creatures aren’t hallucinations, how would bashing yourself in the head make them stop?”

“It wouldn’t,” Jeremy said with a morbid grin. “But if I hit my head hard enough, it would stop me from hearing them—permanently.”

“That’s pretty dark, Mr. Collins.”

Jeremy said nothing. He just lay there flashing a grin at the doctor that chilled her to the bone.

“Ok, Mr. Collins, here’s what I think—”

“Call me Jeremy, please.”

“Right, Jeremy. I think you’ve had a psychotic episode. I’m not sure of the cause yet, but I’d like to transfer you to the psychiatric ward for an evaluation. Seeing how you admitted to having suicidal ideations, I think they’ll want to keep you overnight. Do you understand everything I’ve just told you?”

“It’s not a psychotic episode!” he barked, ignoring the doctor’s question. “It’s the movers. They’re real, I swear—”

“Are they moving you?” asked the doctor.

“Huh?”

“These movers. You never mentioned if they were moving you or not.”

“Well, I—”

A horrible feeling of dread started to build in Jeremy. It mixed with the adrenaline coursing through his veins, becoming a cocktail of physical and mental discomfort. He thought he saw a smile briefly materialize on the blob holding Doctor Kim. Jeremy hadn’t questioned how he was getting around. He just took it for granted, like breathing.

But once you think about breathing, you suddenly become aware you’re doing it.

Jeremy lifted his arm in front of his face. A hand wrapped itself around his wrist. What he could see of it was puke-green and covered in pustules. He waved his hand back and forth—or rather, the creature grasping his wrist waved his hand back and forth.

“No!” the creature’s other hand reached up and pried Jeremy’s mouth open, shaping his lips to form the word. He turned to look at Doctor Kim and screamed when the creature stuck a finger in each of his eyes to roll them manually in the right direction.

“NOOOOOOO!” A green claw pinched his tongue, pulling it this way and that.

Doctor Kim watched in horror as Jeremy screamed and clawed at his eyes like someone possessed. The doctor ran to his side and pressed the call button on his bed. She tried to restrain him, but his arms were too strong. She couldn’t even pry his fingers from his face. Blood rolled down Jeremy’s cheeks as he screamed himself hoarse. Two nurses ran into the room, and Doctor Kim barked at them to hold Jeremy still while she grabbed a sedative.

On her way out of the room, she glanced back and, for the briefest of moments, thought she saw someone other than the nurses holding Jeremy. Someone green.

She blinked, and it was gone.

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Zack Zagranis

Zack Zagranis is punk rock Jedi slumming it in New Hampshire. His short horror stories have appeared in anthologies from Creature Publishing, Black Hare Press, and Sinister Smile Press. Occasionally, people pay him to string words together haphazardly. Zack is a husband, father, geek, misanthrope, feminist, and caffeine addict—not necessarily in that order. A mentally ill college dropout, Zack started writing later in life following a string of dead-end jobs, mainly convenience stores and fast food joints. You can find him on Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, TikTok, and on his couch, scrolling through his phone instead of working.

Youthful Glow by Sierra Silver

His younger lover used to sneer at Grey when he was drunk. “You look good…for your age.” 

Grey held no illusions about the young man’s interest, but it still stung.

He hadn’t endured the ridicule of younger men for over a decade.

***

Grey knocked firmly and waited. The door opened to reveal a man of fading beauty—and unfaded arrogance.

He blinked “Grey?”

“May I come in?”

He invited Grey in. “You look good!”

Grey seized the man, snarling, “For my age?”

His fangs plunged deep before the man could answer, siphoning every last drop of his youthful glow.

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Sierra Silver

Sierra Silver is an author of dark fiction, weaving tales that delve into the depths of human nature. Ranging from horror to dark romance, her works can be found in several anthologies.

Windows of the Soul by Sierra Silver

“I like your eyes.” 

Stirring her drink, Meg rolled her emerald greens. “Thanks.” Turning away, she immediately dismissed the speaker.

Her eyes sparkled while she laughed, and drank, and danced with her friends into the wee hours. Eventually, stumbling out and heading home.

***

Ow, I left my contacts in. Rising from a groggy sleep, Meg blinked awake—she tried to blink. She found herself bound with her eyes prised open,

Her muffled panic caught her captor’s attention. “How unfortunate for you. It’ll hurt more awake.”

The movement of enucleation spoon caught the light. “You really have the most amazing eyes.”

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Sierra Silver

Sierra Silver is an author of dark fiction, weaving tales that delve into the depths of human nature. Ranging from horror to dark romance, her works can be found in several anthologies.

Becoming Plastic by J.B. Corso

“Bobby, please pay attention,” I call out, standing with my teacher’s book open. My patience is as empty as this morning’s coffee cup resting on my desk. The joe’s rich taste long ago transformed into my current bad breath, flavored with the recent consumption of Kahlua and creme.

Overhead classroom lighting reflects off Bobby’s rosy cheeks. Several dogs bark outside the open window, yet his small body sits frozen at the desk when the other students turn to the ongoing disruptions. His left hand remains motionless in the middle of sketching an oblong plane. The dark lead tip connects with the paper at a single point. I don’t understand why he’s playing another of his attention-seeking games after his mother promised she would work with him to be more attentive.

My eyebrows furrow at his insolence. Aggravation settles across my face like wet leaves on an autumn sidewalk. I glare, hoping to snap him back without having to raise the volume of my voice and threaten another headache.

The clock reads ten after eleven. Why can’t it be five o’clock already? Why can’t I be at Shay’s Bar and Grill lifting tumbler glasses full of liquid happiness with my after-work crew? I imagine ice clinking in my grip as we share the day’s burdens under the canopy of sloppy laughter, and even sloppier grab-assing. I retreat into the comfort of the fantasy.

“Ms. Keller,” a young girl’s voice calls out with a confidence of an adult. My mental escapade dissolves away into a room of children. Tiny hairs rise up along the back of my neck.

“Ms. Keller,” she repeats. This is not a request. This is a declaration. I don’t like it.

“What do you need, Su-san?” I snap with a defensive demeanor, hoping to neutralize her effect on my insecurities and retake the reins of the moment.

“He’s not a little boy anymore.” Her arctic tone capsizes my authority.

I stand aghast. The room shifts between blinks. Colorful walls stretch backwards, opening my once standard-sized classroom to the size of a warehouse. The children behind their desks spread away from one another. I could drive my sedan between them.

“What?” My voice trembles. It echoes as if I’m standing in the center of a cave. I wonder if she can hear the single word.

“Bobby’s become a plastic. Just like we’re all going to become.” She pauses. Time drags low and slow between us. I want to say something to release the tension, but the words have been erased from my mental dictionary. Her index finger points at my face.

“Even you.” The decree crawls out from between her tense lips. The final syllable floats like a fat bumblebee across the room, landing in my ear. Susan’s flat expression locks in place. Her gaze becomes still, as if they’d become two marbles, painted to look like eyes. The dark curls around her head lose their spring. The overhead light reflects on her dimpled cheeks.

 The classroom snaps back into its original form. I suck in a breath, promising myself I’ll never drink on a work night, and especially in the morning, if my day can return to normal. Not a drop, even when cheap Sanders gets so hammered he agrees to pay for rounds. It’ll only be water or juice for me. I’ll even give up coffee.

I assemble a prayer from snippets I remember from Sunday school. My memory slips. I stitch together a verbal Frankenstein’s monster of spiritually inspired passages, adding in a ‘peace among men’ to cover all the bases.

One after the other, her classmates brace into stillness behind their squat desks. I stand helpless, watching it happen. One by one. The dogs renew their barking. The children remain static. No one looks. None cares. My hope fades.

I should run out of the door. Maybe I can beat whatever has overtaken these poor darlings. My shoes refuse to shift from the tile floor. I’m stuck. My best opportunity was when I didn’t know any better. The PA speaker cube blares from off to my left. The principal’s panicked voice arrives in my ears as a series of muffled noises. I can’t decipher her instructions.

My skin tightens. My fingers stiffen. I can’t move my head. I want to scream. My lips won’t part. I fear my cheeks… …reflect the overh… …lighting. My. Th-ou-ghts. Er-as-ing.

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J.B. Corso

J.B. Corso is a mental health clinician who has worked with vulnerable populations for nearly 20 years. They enjoy spending time with their children, writing, and pondering existential questions. They live with a supportive partner in the Midwest and enjoy car rides relaxing to the Grateful Dead. Their writing motto is "Developing stories into masterpieces." They are a Horror Writer’s Association member and a NaNoWriMo winner (2021, 2022). They’re an international author with works published with Sirens Call Publications and Black Hare Press.

A Self-Made Mother by Tim Law

They call me Mother, or at least that is what I tell myself they say. Their little voices echo in my mind as I kiss them all goodnight. They are my brood, my loves, the sole reason I choose to come home each night. I love them because they are faultless, something I can call mine, and mine alone. I have named each one of them—Gilbert, Phoenix, Chandler, Sierra, Douglas, and Page. Named, of course, after the places I found them. They were lost, abandoned, discarded like trash, and so close to my car it didn’t take much for me to befriend them. I was there when they needed me, just as much as I needed them. It was simply meant to be, and the memory of each discovery is so precious.

Gilbert was my first one, he had gotten lost at the fair. He had wandered away from his mom while she was changing his sister. The poor woman was distraught when she realized her boy was gone, but by then, we’d wandered so far away I couldn’t hear the name she was screaming.

“Is that my mom?” the little boy had asked, so innocently, in a voice that was a mixture of worry and hope.

“No, I don’t think it was her,” I said in reply with my sweetest and most helpful smile. “I know your mom. Isn’t she wearing a sky-blue skirt with yellow flowers printed on it?”

It was so sweet the way he took my hand so trustingly.

“I think she went this way,” I said as we walked toward my car.

Phoenix wandered out of a cinema, the movie still playing, wanting a snack, or so she told me. I don’t even know what film had been playing. I only know, at that very moment, back home, Gilbert was waiting. He had asked for a sister. Nobody bothers to question a woman with a child resting over her shoulder. I learned that day that when a child’s eyes are closed, and her body is limp, nobody asks questions. They must’ve all thought she was sleeping. In a way, I guess she was.

“That’s it, rest now,” I purred. “What a big day we’ve had.”

Chandler was a far greater challenge, but by then I was hooked. A woman with so much love to give, for me, two children just wasn’t ever going to be enough. Some would call me an addict, others a monster, but I only ever heard the name my children gave me. I found young Chandler at a family picnic at the local park, wide open spaces, I waited patiently until hide-and-seek after lunch. Places to hide were quite sparse. Once I managed to coax the boy down to the stream though, I knew they would never find him again. They thought he’d fallen in, and the stream’s current had washed him away.

I watched the news reports for nearly two whole weeks; no sign of the boy was found except for two tiny shoes. I’m sure his parents are still looking, he’s mine now though. There is no way I will ever give him back.

Sierra was the first time I was brave enough to venture out beyond familiar surroundings. Traveling south in search of new hunting grounds, I suppose, don’t ask me why. I don’t think it was an instinct to be careful, maybe it was my personal compass driving me in such a direction. Mother needed another little girl to balance up the brood. I found her, too, just where I knew I would. So close to the Mexican border. At last, I could add some variety to the numbers. It was a toss-up between naming her Vista or Sierra, but Sierra seemed nicer, and I liked the way it rolled off my tongue. What a precious little thing.

My urges to go south were not finished with after that one trip though, within a week I found myself visiting Tombstone. Once I’d reached there, my heart told me not to stop. I was close, but I had not quite traveled far enough. After Bisbee, it was only forty more minutes before Douglas came into view. What a beautiful sight that was for my poor eyes. I almost wept to see the children there. After watching for an hour or more, I picked my favorite and took him home. Douglas was older than the other children, but I never once considered him my eldest. That honor would always go to Gilbert. You never forget your first.

My search for Page was my most daring adventure yet. I found myself pushed to traveling almost all the way to Utah. I pushed my truck as far as it would go before I had to stop for gas. The trip back was slower, I had to be careful as I had a child to worry about then. Each bump in the road threatened to reveal what was hidden under the tarp. Each unfortunate stop was a possibility of exposure. We both made it home though, safe and sound. I thought Page was my greatest achievement thus far. I took my time with Page. I needed her to be utterly perfect. And she is.

Now for the first time, my yearning has taken me west. The countryside is beautiful, and on this journey, I have decided not to rush. I’ve learned I’m not good when I worry, and traveling north is not the best for my heart nor my mind. I head through Wickenburg and then stick with Route 60, following it all the way to Parker. When I get there, I decide to stay a week.

School is out and families have come here in droves for the holiday break. I consider carefully who it would be the best to add balance to our family, and then I spy a child with skin so white it’s almost the color of the purest snow.

It’s a sign.

I follow the family to the Swansea Ghost Town, but there is no chance there to catch the young boy alone, to lure him away. At the Parker Dam, again I cannot see my chance. I begin to wonder whether this may be the first time I will leave alone. Such a thought is maddening, the worry eats at my very soul. But then the family decides they can splurge and eat out one night. They choose to visit the chaos that is Nellie E. Saloon. I love chaos and darkness—they are my two favorite things. Nobody has missed him, it seems, when I take his hand. Nobody cries out in alarm. I hurry though, no point pressing my luck too much.

I don’t breathe again until we are home. Parker has slept soundly the whole way. You just never know with Special K, too little and they could wake up. Too much and things change very quickly. I get Parker down to the cellar, the place where I do all the preparations. Every hair needs to be carefully plucked, noted, and stored. Then comes the lacquer, not too thin, but not too thick; no cracks, no air bubbles. This is normally the time when things stir, and Parker is no exception. Another injection, big enough to make eyes close forever. Then lift the lids so those beautiful eyes shine bright.

Once the lacquer dries, I can glue the hairs back on, carefully, one by one. Every eyelash, every lock, the arm and leg hairs are so fine. This is the bit that takes the longest, but when I get it impeccably true, it is the thing which gives me the greatest thrill.

I love dressing them back up again and placing them with the rest of the family. Parker has added an extra spring in my step. As I give his little head a peck goodnight, I whisper my thanks. His addition has unbalanced the numbers again. In a week or two I shall need to go hunting, this time for a girl.

Like I said before, they call me Mother as I kiss them all goodnight. They are my brood, my loves, the reason I come home each night. I love them because they are faultless, something that I can call mine, and mine alone.

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Tim Law

Tim Law heralds from a little place in Southern Australia called Murray Bridge. He lives with a wife, some children and four cats who protect the house from the army of rabbits that have taken over the rest of the block. Tim writes because the fauna is dangerous and won’t let him leave the house.

Deliverance – Part One by Elliot Pearson

Apex Interactive Headquarters. Austin, Texas. 1999

Apex Interactive CEO, Dennis Enright, was slumped in his chair, smoking at his desk, awaiting the arrival of Tore Lund, studio head of Kaleidoscope Studios—one of Apex’s flagship studios.

Kaleidoscope had been responsible for developing the Deliverance series, which had launched a highly successful video game franchise that was known for innovation and pushing the industry forward by an unprecedented degree.

But the series had seemingly run its course. Gamers wanted more than a simple corridor shooter.

This wasn’t 1993.

Deliverance VI was the latest release in the series—more of the same, no longer the pinnacle of boundary-pushing technology. It couldn’t compete with the story-driven shooters that were on the rise. As a result, Kaleidoscope had worked hard to develop a project completely different to their long-established series, but Apex had rushed its development, wanting to get it out for summer of 1999.

The doomed, resulting product was shipped on too many discs. Bloated and rife with bugs and glitches, it was practically broken, slammed by critics for having no clear identity and for being almost unplayable.

Dennis had called the meeting with Tore to discuss the future of the studio and his clandestine plans for a new project that might just change the future of the entertainment industry once again—perhaps even forever.

Dennis spun around in his chair and faced the Austin skyline from his vast office window. This could all be gone soon, if we don’t take drastic measures, he thought. If we don’t innovate.

Dennis’s meek secretary opened the door and peeked her head through.

“Mr Lund is here to see you, Mr Enright.”

Dennis spun back around. “Let him in.”

Tore Lund entered the room and closed the door behind him.

He had a patchy adolescent beard that always looked in need of a good trim. No one would have guessed this guy was responsible for creating the high-octane, ultraviolent Deliverance series.

But men have much to hide.

“Hi, Dennis.”

“Tore. Great to see you.” Dennis motioned with his hand. “Please, sit.”

Tore took the seat opposite. Dennis swiveled from side to side anxiously. “Can I get you something to drink? Coffee?”

“No, thanks. I’m good.”

“You sure? Water? I can get the girl to bring you something.”

“No. I’m fine.”

“Alright. Straight to business then.” Dennis cleared his throat. “As you are aware, Octogun underperformed. Badly.”

Tore’s eyes were downcast. “Sales expectations were high, Dennis.”

Dennis grimaced. “Why shouldn’t they be? We’re in a highly competitive industry. There are studios popping up all over the place, making huge deals with our rivals. They’re doing what Kaleidoscope used to do very well, and with a lot less money. Could you tell me what it is they’re doing very well?”

“Innovating…”

Innovating. Damn right. Octogun wasn’t innovating, my friend. It was imitating.”

“With all due respect, Dennis, we had many plans that had to be scrapped. Innovative plans, which—”

“You had an entire year. A year of no releases from Kaleidoscope. You were working on one project. One. Don’t tell me you didn’t have enough time. Sounds to me like your team need to buck up their ideas. This is a business.”

“Well, Dennis, we could have done with another six months. That’s all I’m saying. Maybe even another year.”

“A year! Listen to me, Tore. We don’t have a year. Apex is in financial dire straits.”

Tore cringed. “I didn’t know. I’m sorry.”

“It’s too late to be sorry.” Dennis sighed. “It’s not your fault. I’ve put too much pressure on the studio. Too much money into too many projects. Projects that didn’t have the potential to be successful in the way we wanted. We’re going to restart Project Deliverance. We need to bring Ace Sterling back from the dead. The ultimate fucking badass antihero who made this company a shitload of money. Which put us on the map. Your game, Tore. You put us on the map. The innovator. The genius!”

“But I thought those plans fell through? I thought studies concluded the public was done with Ace and Deliverance? Like you said—six was a disaster.”

“Listen—we could do something completely unprecedented with a new Deliverance. Something nobody’s done before. It’s not just about the in-game tech. We need to develop an entirely new way of playing.”

Tore’s eyebrows furrowed. “You’re talking about the virtual reality experience?”

“Damn right, I am.”

“With the donor?” Tore leaned forward.

“Yep.” Dennis grinned maniacally, entwined his fingers like a stereotypical evil scheming dark lord.

Tore shook his head. “Dennis. You know how I feel about that. It’s unethical.”

Dennis put his hands up in the air. “You’re not seeing the bigger picture, Tore. Just think about it. This would change everything.”

Tore sighed. “When would production begin? The technology is nowhere near ready.”

“I’m speaking to some people. It’s a few years out.”

“You said we don’t even have a year. How can the company survive that long?”

“It has to, Mr Lund. And do you know how we’re going to do that?”

“How?”

“We’re going to loan the tech to the military, or whoever wants to buy it. I don’t care who. They’re going to be lining up outside this building on their knees for this shit.”

“What would they use that kind of technology for?”

“Who cares what they use it for. We keep the rights, loan it out, and use the money to fund even more project. We could have a new trilogy on our hands. We’ll become rich. Heroes of the industry. No one will be able to compete with us. No one. We’ll have complete dominion over the entertainment industry.”

“And the donor? Who is it exactly?”

“Details, Tore. Details.”

“I need to know the details. Did they have a choice in the matter?”

“A choice? Of course they had a choice. We’re not monsters. It was death row or signing up to be a donor and live forever.”

“Who is it?”

“A vegetable. Practically comatose. What more is there to know? It’s just a body. A vessel.”

Who is it?”

Dennis sighed and lit another cigarette. He exhaled in Tore’s direction. Tore swiped the pungent smoke out of his face.

It is a sicario. DEA picked him up two weeks ago. They’ve been after him for years. Being delivered to the facility at 0800 in two days’ time. Despicable individual. Responsible for the murders of countless men, women and children. The guy’s a scumbag. We’re doing the world a favor by taking him out of it. Real psycho—but a pro. Absolutely perfect for us. God damn perfect.”

“No matter who it is, I don’t think I can be party to this, Dennis. It’s not right. It’s a human rights violation. I should resign.”

Dennis rose to his feet, slammed his hands on the desk. “Resign? Are you fucking kidding me? Think about it. Just think for a second. This is the opportunity of a lifetime. Both our dreams would come true. We’d change the world, man. We’d be rich. That, I can guarantee. Think about it. Deliverance VR! No, wait. Deliverance Returns! Deliverance for Real! Deliverance Forever!”

“Wasn’t that a Batman movie? The one with the nipples?”

Duke Nukem. And look how that’s turning out. No—not Deliverance Forever…”

“How about just…Deliverance?”

“God damn.” Dennis sat back down and stared with mad, wide eyes at Tore. He took another drag, exhaled. “You’re a genius. That’s it. You always had the best ideas. I knew you’d do it again. It’s rebranding without rebranding. A rebirth. No. A reboot. It’s fantastic!”

“It’s quite simple, really.”

“Exactly. Beautiful in its simplicity. So—you’re in?”

Tore looked down at his shoes. “I don’t know.”

“You’d go down in history as the greatest video game developer of all time, my friend. Isn’t that what you’ve always wanted? You’ll be respected again. Adored. Everyone wants to be adored. This will be real game-changing shit.”

Tore sighed. “Alright. But—before anything else, what’s the guy’s name?”

“Huh? Who?”

“The donor.”

“Oh, some Spanish name. Let me check the file.” Dennis tapped on his keyboard and clicked a couple times. “Shit. Wait. Oh. Here’s the son of a bitch. Valdez. Romero Valdez.”

Tore looked past Dennis, out the window, imagining who this guy might be, wondering if he had a family. “Romero Valdez…”

“What does that matter? Romero Valdez ceases to exist. He’ll be the Ace—reborn for the new millennium. It’s going to be beautiful. Just beautiful.”

Kaleidoscope Studios. Dallas, Texas. 2052

Kashaf “Kash” Devlyn was typing spasmodically on her computer. She’d only started working at the newly reformed Kaleidoscope Studios six months ago and was eager to please the new studio owner—billionaire, Tobias Renko.

Getting a job at Kaleidoscope had been a dream. Kash would have been happy to just be the office janitor. She’d grown up on the studio’s games. Her father had introduced her to the Deliverance series when she was probably too young. He’d also shown her the underrated Octogun, which had received a cult following over the years, appreciated by those who had a thing for retro titles and buggy jank.

Kash didn’t believe it when she heard rumors circulating online that Kaleidoscope was being reformed, arisen from the ashes. Apex Interactive, the studio’s former owner, had gone bust and sold its assets. After many years, Tobias Renko purchased the studio in a bidding war.

Tobias promised long-term fans of Deliverance that they would see the return of legendary protagonist, mechanic turned neon demon slayer, Ace Sterling, in his crusade against the endless, insurmountable hordes of the Tek Demonik—a sinister bio-mechanical alien race from a distant dark star.

Kaleidoscope issued a statement that the new iteration of Ace would be more representative of the times. No longer a chain-smoking, crew cut misogynist who uttered sexist and offensive quips dressed in a blood and sweat stained wife-beater with a face modelled on disgraced Apex Interactive CEO, Dennis Enright—a man who’d been mired in a series of scandalous accusations of corruption. Enright was eventually assassinated in his own office just prior to the liquidation of Apex.

The return of the once-beloved studio had been a miraculous success story. But, as Tobias reminded Kash and all the employees at Kaleidoscope, they still had a long road ahead of them, and their first impossible task was rebooting the dead and buried Deliverance franchise.

As a talented programmer, Kash now found herself as part of the creative team leading the project, responsible for creating a sequel, reboot, requel, or whatever the hell it was, to her favorite gaming franchise of all time.

***

Tobias came out of his office and approached Kash. She typed a little faster and a little harder as he neared, careful not to shatter the keyboard in the process.

“Hey, Kash.” Tobias stood behind her. “You don’t have to work so hard all day, you know.” He grinned and placed his hand on Kash’s shoulder.

“Just working on some code.”

“Cool. Hey, take a break for a while. I’d like you to head down to the archives in the basement.”

Kash swiveled round in her chair. “Oh. I’ve never been down there. I thought all that stuff had been sifted through by the art department.”

“It has. And they found invaluable stuff. Great stuff. But I hadn’t hired you when I sent folks down there. And you’ve proven yourself to be the best programmer I’ve ever known. You’ll notice things the art guys never could.”

“Wow. Thanks, Tobias. I’m flattered. Really.”

“It’s the truth. There are some old hard drives and floppy discs I’d like you to take a look at. See what you can find and bring it up. But—not to your desk. I’d like you to take the drives into the private office. And switch the glass to black. Lock the door. I don’t want you disturbed.”

“Sounds like some sort of secret mission.” Kash laughed.

Tobias didn’t. “Something like that. I’d just like to keep things compartmentalized. I’d like the other teams to focus on what they do best. And for you to focus on what you do best. Understand?”

“Sure thing.”

Tobias smiled. “You’re doing a great job. Head on down, but why don’t you get something to eat first. Here’s some credit chips. Lunch is on me.”

He took out some multi-colored credits from his pocket and placed them on Kash’s desk, then squeezed her shoulder before returning to his office.

Kash didn’t mind Tobias. He was a good boss. Jovial and fair. But she wished he’d stop doing that.

***

Kash made her way to the elevator with a large soda in one hand and a paper bag containing a greasy burger and fries in the other.

In the basement, Kash sucked on the soda and took bites from the burger as made her way through piles of unsorted boxes until she found old desktop hard drives, large back-up drives, and several boxes full of CDs and floppy discs without labels.

God damn, she thought. What a mission.

Still—it’d be fun to go through all this old crap.

Who knew what she’d find.

***

Now in the private office, Kash pressed a wall switch to black out the smart crystal windows, then switched on the computer and started going through the storage devices one by one.

Most of the files were digital copies of things the team already had. Old concept art from the studios’ glory days.

Kash loved going through the folders. They were a gold mine to a fan like her. She was giddy and filled with a surging adrenaline until she reached the boring stuff. Boring development files about nothing or other. Kash skim read them until she came across a file pertaining to something called Project Deliverance.

The project had been spearheaded by Tore Lund, a true industry legend. He’d created Ace Sterling and Deliverance when he was barely out of his teens, before striking a deal with Apex and selling the game for millions. Tore was a genius programmer and designer. A legend to Kash. But he disappeared. Just didn’t show up to work one day, never seen or heard from again.

Kash kept reading.

To her surprise, virtual reality was mentioned as a real possibility as far back as 1999, with talk of developments having been made. But—nothing came to fruition. Just failed tests.

There was also mention of a donor. Kash had no idea what that meant. And a file on a man named Romero Valdez, a wanted criminal.

Kash eventually came to a file that mentioned a location on the outskirts of Austin where unspecified biotech was being stored in a place called Facility 200X.

She made a note of the location in her phone.

***

It was getting late. Kash switched off the computer and left the room. Her colleagues were peeling themselves from their desks, bleary-eyed and yawning, slowly making their way out of the office.

As she was closing the door, Tobias appeared behind her as he always did.

She jumped.

“Woah! Sorry, little lady. Didn’t mean to scare you.”

Kash held her chest. “It’s OK. My head was just elsewhere.”

Tobias smiled. “So—how’d it go? What did you find in those old pieces of junk?”

“Oh, nothing we don’t already have. Some intriguing mention of VR, but it never got off the ground. Never knew the studio was doing research into that so long ago. Did you?”

“Didn’t have a clue. I’d hoped there’d be some golden nugget in there somewhere.”

“There might still be. I haven’t finished looking through all the files yet.”

“Well, Kash—get back to it tomorrow. You’re doing great.” Tobias placed his hand on her shoulder.

She was growing very weary of that.

She feigned a smile. “See you tomorrow, then, Tobias. Have a good night.”

“You as well.” Tobias let his hand drop. It swung at his side like a dangle weed. His smile wavered a little. “Security will lock up.” He turned away and left.

Kash watched as he merged into the dark beyond corridor, heading for the elevator.

Once outside, Kash got in her car and began taking the usual route home, on autopilot, before seeing a sign to Austin. She thought of Facility 200X mentioned in the files.

Curiosity got the better of her.

She changed lanes and took the next intersection, punched the location mentioned in the file into her phone’s GPS and headed for Austin.

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Elliot Pearson

Elliot Pearson is a writer of speculative fiction and poetry. His work can be found in Starline, The Banyan Review, and in several past editions of The Stygian Lepus. He lives in New Mexico.